Why !!!!!

Why i got to know all things that make me .... feel bad.... why i am of exploring nature......??
You tell me something and i can ..... go to root level... it is becoming easier for me now..... and in the end i really think, seeing the outcome, .. why i did that ??? it'll be better if i didnt get this new untold information.

I can tell....... its not alwayz me.... if i am not willing to explore... situations make me do this .... providing opportunities...

I never wanted to know some things!!.... but i know now.... dnt know... how can we erase our memory of certain days....

I'll try to be the same...... try to react in same manner as those things i dnt knw.... but its a pain in doing this ... react with plastic feelings and emotions....

i dnt really like ppl behaving in the way ..... which is not their originality..... but i have to copy that in certain situations now.... i dnt know how much i'll hate myself..

I never hated myself.... i loved the way i am.... no regrets so far..... so this is hard for me....

One thing i can do.... really... i am a person who can tell you things directly (Its just what you feel..... no plastic stuffs)what is the that rubbish of yours ....thts hurting me

...and if you are my friend... and believe.... friends usually appriciate this approach... but some do not and they are not precisly your friends... rather your first level friends..

So the last approach i mentioned here .... i love.... though it is like self distruction...

You never know what you see in this plastic world is true or not... people alwayz... appear that they are your friend.... they can mention your friendship when they need you.... but they never mention whenever you think that they are your friend.....

its all become rubbish stuf in this post....... i dint know what i typed.... but one thing is coming into my mind.... i must start sleeping early.... else...

else what i'll fill this blog with posts no one can understand... :) like this... this is quite quite personal........ and as alwayz.... "no comments are required..." rest your wish....

Moral : Dont do the things you dont like....... do the things you like..... if you are hurted in the outcome just remmeber the time you enjoyed while doing all those things ...... you can handle the outcome your way alwayz....